Snow

 Yes    We had snow today, and are expecting accumulating snow in the next couple of days.

Saw Dr. Trachtke today (still having trouble breathing.)     THe fluids are accumulating in my right lung again.    I will get a stent put in tomorrow.    Unfortunately some cancer DID show up in the fluids they took out last week.     We are proceeding with what can be done.    I am not in pain so that is a blessing.    Please pray for me.

Thank you for everything - I care for you all.    Please take care of you and yours.

Dia DHuit

Mary

Past, Present. Future

Nightly my mind meanders.

Does it matter where?

We are cold.

Right now it is 21 degrees.    I know all my northern friends are laughing as I DO check your temps in the mornings and know you are much colder.      BUT I am an Okie now and expect much warmer times.   Since I lost all that weight, I get cold easier too.

It was a nice day though.      I am having trouble breathing still, but moved my appointment up to THIS Thursday instead of next week.     If I am worse tomorrow, I will call and see if Dr. Traqchke can squeeze me in.    I should be able to handle one more day after a Long night in my  adjustable bed.   Sure glad I replaced the old one with that - It is really making a difference.

 My friend, Lupe, dropped by with a Lenten daily prayer book for me.    Can't believe that Wednesday is Ash Wednesday already.      I will have to miss that for probably the first time since I was 6 years old and went with Mother or Dad.

God understands.    We will count my gasping as ashes this year.

Take care of all of you.

I love you SO much and miss you.

Dia Dhuit

Mary

 

 

Can't tell where 

The clouds leave off

And the earth begins

Monday

 I am still having trouble breathing.    Will call the doctor tomorrow for advice.  I AM getting air in deeper but am still out of breath every time I stand up or walk anywhere.   Just going to get some advice.    I am so TIRED.

Bart came over and spent most of the morning and early afternoon.   He did my wash, bless his soul and changed the sheets on the bed for me.    He and Barb are SO good to me and I am no fun now:) :)   I hope you see my humor.

Friends are so good about checking on me.     My neighbor Mark, across the street is checking the mail for me every day.   He and Sondra say I am part of their family.     I am going to bake for them when I am better.

Thanks for all the prayers and good thoughts.    Keep them up Please.

Dia Dhuit

Mary

ON FLYING

Darkness surrounds us

We fly over the ocean

Held up by angels.

Hi

I am heading to bed after a blessedly wonderful day.    I had calls and visits and am totally wonderfully exhausted.    Will do better posting tomorrow.

Dia Dhuit

I love you all

Mary

OOPS I meant it is the 5th already

 Silly me

Can't believe it is Feb. 4 Already

 I got my second coronavirus vaccine this morning and saw Dr. Aiku, my primary physician.   I DO feel better after getting rid of the amount of fluid removed from my right lung, but am still breathless if I do anything.    I do seem to be recovering better and understand that my body and the furosomide should get rid of the rest of the fluids.    I see Dr. Trachtke in two weeks.   Unless things get worse again, of course.   Which tells me that this is not an overnight healing.

THanks for all the prayers.    I pray for each of you every day.  Stay well and safe and love each other.

Dia Dhuit

Mary

Good thing

I will be seeing the lung doctor tomorrow morning.    Please pray that he can fix me.   I think I just have to be drained.    Wow, to take a breath without gasping for air.   AND to walk across a room.

Nora and Eileen both called me today.     How good my family is.   They must KNOW that I need a voice often:)

So tired.    Now I actually believe that there is perhaps a resolution .    This is the doctor that did my lung surgery.\

Dia Dhuit

Mary 

Morning Doves crooning

In the early dank morning

Sadness in their song.

One thing checked

Dr. Ivan, the heart specialist, says that though there is fluid in my heart, my heart is strong and that the fluid in my lungs which the hospital did not seem to concerned with is the problem.     He has referred me to Dr. Tratchke, the lung specialist who did my cancer surgery.      He should be able to drain the lung.    Please pray that this is so and that he can see me soon.     I am so very very tired.

Dia dhuit

Stay Well

I love you all

Mary

When green grass smiling

Under sky of  blue so pure

I ALWAYS brings peace to our souls.

A beautiful sunny day.

 Too bad that I could not go out and enjoy it.

Vita sure enjoyed her back yard. I do miss walking.

Tomorrow I will see Dr. Ivan.    I am trying not to get my hopes up for an instant cure.     It is hard though because I am so tired and so tired of gasping for air.

You all pray for INSTANT for me:)

Barb brought me some wonderful taco soup for my supper.    Am I blessed or what!!!

 

 

Dia Dhuit

Mary

St. Brigid's Eve

Tomorrow is St.Brigid's Day.    You all know, I think, that she, St. Patrick and St. Colm Cille are all patron saints of Ireland.      It is tradition to put a new cloth outside overnight as they say that Brigid roams the earth this night.     Her spirit passes through the clothes that are out and they can be helpful in healing throughout the year.

I love these old traditions.   

I was alone today, but heard from a few people and got caught up with my Bill Smith.

Tomorrow is quiet too, then on Tuesday, I see the hear specialist.    You are probably ALL sick of hearing about that but I am so anxious to see if there is anything to be done for my breathing.   

As I always say, I pray for all of you and want you to take special care in this strange world of ours.

Dia Dhuit

Mary 

Love when it begins 

Is pure and full of promise

Hope and trust can prevail.

The day is done

 Didn't do anything but am still tired.    Somebody ALWAYS calls or stops by for a minute so I feel very cared for.     I pray for all of you every day.    That I have tune for and cab talk to HIM anytime.    

Take care of YOU and YOURS>

Dia Dhuit

Mary

I believe in love

Where peace and passion can meet

In perfect comfort,

Bart stopped by today

 Bless his heart, he did a load of wash for me.

Bret called tonight.    I was sure glad to hear his voice.    

I am still totally tired when walking and talking but think perhaps I feel a Little bit better.   Will continue resting and not overdoing.    

Bless ALL of you for your prayers and calls and thoughts.     Hoping for really good news with the heart  doctor on Tuesday.

We are supposed to have a warm weekend, perhaps some rain, but warm.

Dia Dhuit

Mary

CLASS OF 1958

We were invincible

We walked tall and\

 strode into the now

With great promise

We dreamed of a future

Higher than the hills

 

We ARE invincible

We walked tall and

Strode in to the future

With giant steps

We left a path

Wider than the sea/

 

It was sunny tody

 After a grand thunderstorm last night.   Busy Day.    Michael came and unplugged my plumbing this morning and I saw my Cancer Doctor, Dr. Currie today.    Had blood test and all and he says I am doing fine.      Have to see him in six months and we will talk about getting the port out.     Hopefully my shortness of breath and weakness will be all gone by then.     He doesn't have answers for that, of course.     I am SO hoping that Dr. Ivan, the heart guy can help.

Going to have Chili for dinner and get in bed by 8PM again.

Dia Dhuit

Mary

So many days and weeks alone

Do weigh on people's spirits

They yearn for touch and dulcet tones

Of others, like them NEEDING it.

Home again

Home again.     It did rain a bit today.    Vita does not like rain.     I will let her out one more time before I go to bed.

Had a hamburger and blueberries and protein drink for supper.    I have been "ordered" to consume two of the protein drinks every day as I am losing weight again.

My friend Lupe brought me communion tonight after the 4:30PM  Mass.     I am so blessed to have people who care for me and bring me such a treat.    I miss the sacrament when I can't have it.

Dia Dhuit

Mary

 

A MEMORY OF SNOW
Sunshine

Glinting on snow

Is very deceiving.

Giving us a promise of warmth.

A LIE

Friday already

I am trying to keep track of the days.    Actually doing this blog helps, but sometimes I just forget.    There isn't much to do.

Good thing there isn't much to do.    I am not even getting that done:)

Bart came over to visit for a while, AND my friend, Marti brought flowers.   I was so touched.   Now I have something beautiful and fresh in the living room.     We had a lovely visit.     She is in my bible study AND my writiers club.    Karlos, her husband, is also in the writers club.     So good to have friends.

I can't seem to get enough rest.     Monday, I go to the CancerCenter for my cancer checkup.    I will also have blood tests that my other doctors will have available.     I see the heart specialist a week from Monday.  Why AM I not getting stronger.

Dia Dhuit

Mary

 

 

Let us strive for healing,

Healing of body,

Healing of soul.

Let us see value

In every soul that walks the earth.

Felt better this morning

 but that has deteriorated during the day.   I thought I was being careful, but apparently I cannot do much at all.

Bart came over today and did some shopping and visited with me, so I did not have to be alone all day.     As I say, Vita does her best but she is after all only a little doggie.

I hope each long night's sleep will provide some healing and will be home for the rest of the week.  Will try to remember not to do much of anything.    (It is amazing how things get cluttered, however.)    I will do my best.

At least my house was cleaned yesterday.    I am truly blessed.

Bless all of you

I love you.

Mary

Thoughts of Ireland

Cloudy Dublin day

Cannot dim the city's joy

We drank it all in

Water from the holy wells

Bridged the spirit World

Drums reset my heart

The healing is complete

We walk between the raindrops.

Just about the same

 I keep thinking that this will pass AND perhaps it will, but I am getting a bit discouraged.   I sleep alright  so my body is trying.      I am trying to eat enough, don't know if I am doing well on that.

Today, my cleaning lady, Kerry, came and cleaned my house.    Good thing.    I don't know if I told you that I had a backup on the plumbing again.    Michael from Shields came and fixed it and took all the crud out of the tub and shower, but they needed a deep cleaning.

I am able to take care of most things and call Bart and Barb for what I cannot do.

Pray for me.    I am so tired and I DON"T like being weak.

As you all know, patience is not my virtue:)

Love you all

Dia Dhuit

Mary

Another day home

Vita is finally starting to accept the fact that we are not taking walks.     She is spending much more time in the wonderful backyard she has.

I am still out of breath anytime I walk of do too much talking.    Trying to stay put and quiet.   Or at least talk slowly.

Barb stopped by with provisions for me and we had a short visit.     So glad to see someone real.     My friend, Judy, stopped by after church with some books for me to read.    I got several calls today.    Dick and Brenda, my friend Barb among them.   So nice to be thought of.    Talked to Bill Smith today too, I realized he probably did not know and I was right.     He was so glad I let him know.

Tomorrow, a quiet Sunday.   I won't be going anywhere until this breathlessness stops OR I have a doctor appointment.   I hope the breathlessness goes away first!!!!

Dia Dhuit

Mary

If we lose the fact

That every person has value

We are surely doomed.

Home another day

I DID have to go to see my doctor, Dr. Aiku, this afternoon.    She  wants to see me after I see the heart specialist unless the breathing problem does not subside.     I will be seeing a Dr. Ivan, the heart specialist on Feb 5.

Poor Vita is very upset as she does not get walks any more.      I give her plenty of back yard opportunities so I know she does something.    At least she is not messing in the house.  Hopefully we will be able to walk again, but I will no longer take her out three or four times a day.    I have learned my lesson.

Bless you all.

Dia Dhuit

Mary

 

Poem from my walking days

 

The wind took my hat

As we walked around the block

I chased it and caught it

No wind gets the best of me:)

How is everybody

 I suppose you have all given up on me by now.     Some of you know that I am having a couple of health issues, but the doctor's assure me that they are all minor or "related to old age."     Actually I do not find the last encouraging,but it is what it is.

Anyway, I am home and have my Vita with me and will be alone tonight.    I, if I remember that there are no deadlines, will do just fine.  Tomorrow, I see my family doctor again.     U definitely do feel better each day.

Not COVID, thank God.

Take care of all of you in this goofy world.

DIa Dhuit

Mary

Loving

Is all we need

To be able to make

Us strong and safe again!

LOVE MORE!!!

Be safe

This year is starting off as goofy as the last year ended.    Lets all pull together to try to turn this around.

Care for each other.   Stand up for the good.    Be patient.   PRAY.     I am doing a LOT of that.   (Especially for all of you.

We need to be able to get together and hug each other.     I believe in HUGS>\

 

Dia dhuit

Mary

 

Blessed

I today

Tucked in my safe warm home

Sheltered from the evils outside

Secure/

A chilly but pleasant day.

 Bart was over for part of the afternoon to help me with a couple of things.   He sure is good to me

I always love having someone in the house to talk to.     He is very kind, as he, like his fathers is not a bit talker.

The weekend is quiet too.   I pick up my sewing machine in the morning (Needed some repairs.   I asked the guy if he thought I should replace it as it is over 20 years old.He said NO   The old Kenmores were made to last.)    I will then be able to finish a square that is needed for Quilt Guild on Monday.

Hope you are all doing well.   This increase in COVID 19 infections is getting really scary.

Dia Dhuit

Mary

When we lose th fact

That everyone has value

We are truly doomed/

Hi Everybody

It was cool and damp all day today.    I don't think I ever warmed up, even upping the thermostat did not help as it has gotten into my bones.

Home most of the day.    Did go grocery shopping, which really wore me out.

Bart came over for a while this afternoon so I had someone to talk to which you know I love.

They are doing well.

Hope you all are doing well too.

Dia  Dhuit

Mary

 

Do plants feel their thirst?

I like to thing watering makes

Them feel better.

I am so appalled

We are not even over or near over the worldwide coronavirus that is threatening our populace.     We certainly don't need this horrible situation in our beloved United States of America.

What is wrong with Trump?   Every avenue admits that he has lost but he still persists.    What is wrong with the people who believe him?     I am relying only on the numbers that voted.    There was not a little difference in the totals = it was conclusive.

 I just keep praying that sane minds will prevail.   

 Meanwhile take care of yourselves.    I am getting the vaccine tomorrow.

Dia Dhuit

Mary

 

 

Hungry, I yearn for days gone by

When we were two and not apart

H was my strength, my special guy

And I was first within his heart.

Hi Everybody

Please stay safe.    I worry about all of you.    I am mainly at home and wearing a mask whenever I am with or near others, (which is not often)    Today I got xrays or my chest because anytime I do ANYTHING, I am completely out of breath and have to sit for a while.    Will find out tomorrow if there is anything there.    I think it is related to that procedure of my esophagus and don't know if anything but time will help.    At least I can take the time to see if things will get better.

All else is well.

We are having lovely weather.

Dia Dhuit

Mary 

THE CRONE

Having reached the age of eight times ten,

I am a very wise woman.

A crone, if you wish.

I make spirits out of the juice of fruits.

I am a very wise woman.

I share my knowledge in word and lore.

I am a poet and keeper of history.

I defend my village with a spear

made for me by a blind carver.

Queen Maeve left the wood in the corner of his shop.

The carver told me so.

Nearer now to the spirit world

I often feel comfort

from soul friends in the realm beyond,

near but just beyond reach.

The veil thins.

Warm and sunny weather

 Don't know how long it will last, but I am enjoying it.    I am probably letting Vita talk me into taking her out more than I should just because the sun and fresh air feel so good.     I still get out of breath and have to rest for some time after coming in.

It takes me until about 11:00AM before I feel like a real person.

But at least I DO get to feel like a real person.

I keep pretty busy at home alone.   It is amazing how many things come up in a retired person's life when we are supposed to just relax.    I remember that people used to ask Dick what he did after he retired.   And I quote:  'I am retired.   That is what I do."

I wish I was more like him that way, I always think I should be "productive".     Guess I really did enough of that in my 80 years:)

Love You

Dia Dhuit

Mary

As days extend to weeks

And lonliness is spreading

The soul in sadness boldly seeks

For a touch

Or For a HUG

A quiet day

I was home all day, except for walking Miss Vita.    It was pleasant walking, but she was somewhat of a pest.     I know, I know, I spoil her.    I am trying to back off a bit the past few days because, since the procedure, I get out of breath easily.    Will be calling them tomorrow to be sure this is normal and to make sure when I get checked again. 

Found a couple of sitting projects to occupy a lot of my time.     I do get lonely and miss talking to someone, you know who.   I know he listens but I can't hear him speak anymore.

Tomorrow, home again.   Have a lot of after long holiday  calls to make so will be busy for at least a portion of the day.

 

Miss you all

Dia Dhuit

Mary

 

The elm trees are naked

In this winter season.

Squirrels are exposed as they leap

From tree to tree to fence and down

  

A chilly morning

 But it got up into the 50's later and is supposed to do about the same for the next four days.

This morning, I remembered that I had not got my lottery tickets - Horror of horrors.   Dick probably poked me to remind me.    I did not have numbers for Wednesday - Phew our lucky numbers did not come up.

Went to church this evening.   I am still rather weary and somewhat sore in my bones, but tomorrow and Monday, I should be able to stay home ALL Day.     I am sick of this weakness and want to be my normal self.

Bless everybody this 2nd day of 2021,  

Dia Dhuit

Mary

A breath of fresh thought

Striding through your mind with JOY

Always true to you

What a special morning

Vita and I woke up to snow.   There was at least an inch and a half on the lawn.    I found out that Vita does not mind snow at all.   She just pranced along on her walks.    I had to be careful because there were some frozen spots.    I had my rubber boots so just moved into lawns if it looked as all slippery.

 As our weather people pointed out, snow is water too and will help the drought situation that we have been in for some time.

After the procedure, I feel fine.     Very weary, but I guess that is to be expected and I do get out of breath.   Monday, I will contact the doctor to update and find out if this is all normal. As I seem to be improving, I am not worried.

A very quiet beginning to the year.   I am not complaining.    Hope your 2021 is starting off peacefully and content.

Dia Dhuit

Mary

 

 Time alone is good for the soul.

But only if they accept and embrace it.

Self quarantine mandated by law

Does not bring about meditation and peace.