It has been three days now. I still can't quite believe that Dick has really gone on ahead. I have not been alone for such a long time, and I loved being with Dick. We were a good team.
I baked today. I always do a lot of cooking when I am under stress or troubled. I remember one day Jim jokingly telling his Dad that they ought to think of a way to make me nervous so that I would bake some good stuff. At least I think he was joking.
I have been going through the meds and all the equipment that we needed for Dick and am going to try to find homes for most of it.
I went to Mass this afternoon. That was good. I always get comfort and strength from the Mass and from the sacrament. Today was no exception.
Bart and Barb are going to be here tonight. I will tell you about their arrival tomorrow as I will be up later than usual tonight and you know what a lazy bones I am.
So until tomorrow, I just wanted you to know that I am OKAY and will be OKAY. Just takes a bit of time and believing.
Dia Dhuit
Mary
Saturday, December 22, 2012
Thursday, December 20, 2012
Two days. I still feel rather lost but I was very glad to be home all day today. If I HAD wanted to go our, the snow would have prevented it. So it is a good thing I wanted to be home.
Lots of calls from so many friends and family that I did not have a chance to feel really alone at all.
I kept myself occupied today just going through the house to gather all the things that remind me of Dick's illnesses. I want them out of here so that only the loving things that we shared are here to make me smile. We had so many happy times and I am grateful that even in his bad times, he still could make me laugh. After 26 years that is really quite an accomplishment. I smile just thinking of this.
Tomorrow, more of the same, but I will have Jody cleaning in the morning and a couple of people will be coming to take care of a couple of things. I will at some time to go to the Pig for a few things that I will be needing. Not much but there is always something.
I will be in bed tonight early. I am slowly getting rested. now that I don't have to get up during the night.
BUT - I would rather be getting up if I had my druthers.
Love and Dia Dhuit
Mary
Lots of calls from so many friends and family that I did not have a chance to feel really alone at all.
I kept myself occupied today just going through the house to gather all the things that remind me of Dick's illnesses. I want them out of here so that only the loving things that we shared are here to make me smile. We had so many happy times and I am grateful that even in his bad times, he still could make me laugh. After 26 years that is really quite an accomplishment. I smile just thinking of this.
Tomorrow, more of the same, but I will have Jody cleaning in the morning and a couple of people will be coming to take care of a couple of things. I will at some time to go to the Pig for a few things that I will be needing. Not much but there is always something.
I will be in bed tonight early. I am slowly getting rested. now that I don't have to get up during the night.
BUT - I would rather be getting up if I had my druthers.
Love and Dia Dhuit
Mary
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
I have spoken to most of my readers at some time today. There may some of you, however, that do not know that my husband, Dick, passed away last night at Rocky Knoll.
I was there. I was asleep on a cot next to his bed when he also fell asleep and went on into forever. He had been failing and when he contracted the pneumonia and a reoccurance of the UTI sent him into a spin that he never recovered from. He had practically stopped eating and I was so afraid. For good reason it seems. His face was so peaceful. No more distress, or pain or worry. It was hard for me to kiss his sweet face for the very last time. But I know that he is no longer in pain or confused or depressed. He is still with me and always will be.
Thank all of my friends and family for all the prayers and love that have held us up these past years.
Dia Dhuit
Mary
I was there. I was asleep on a cot next to his bed when he also fell asleep and went on into forever. He had been failing and when he contracted the pneumonia and a reoccurance of the UTI sent him into a spin that he never recovered from. He had practically stopped eating and I was so afraid. For good reason it seems. His face was so peaceful. No more distress, or pain or worry. It was hard for me to kiss his sweet face for the very last time. But I know that he is no longer in pain or confused or depressed. He is still with me and always will be.
Thank all of my friends and family for all the prayers and love that have held us up these past years.
Dia Dhuit
Mary
Monday, December 17, 2012
Quite a day. I got up at 6AM so that I could be all ready for the day.
I had a PT appointment at 8:15AM. That went well, I guess. I am not seeing much change in the pain yet. I told Dara, I will have the strongest sore arm in town soon.
Then I stopped at Walgreens for a prescription and some toothpaste on my way to Bible Study. It was a very nice study, our last until next year. That always seems funny to say. We started with our prayer and petitions first. I was able to thank them all for all the prayers that have been showering heaven about Dick and me. We then discussed the terrible tragedy in Connecticut. Something like that always hits right in the heart. It is hard to understand and we know there are never answers. I am so impressed with the heroes of that day and feel that heaven really got a dose of beauty and innocence, all in one morning. All those beautiful children. Poor Moms and Dads.
Then I hurried home and gathered my food for the Cream City Writers Christmas lunch. Beverly invited us to her home, we did pot luck. It was SO good and so good to be with my friends. It has been at least three months since I could go to the meetings. Too much time away from Dick. I had arranged for care during all of my club's parties. Now that he is at Rocky Knoll, I was able to go to this one anyway. Last week, when he was in the hospital, I skipped two of them. I read my Christmas poem and the poem about the Trees that I wrote when they destroyed them in back of the condo to make way for the railroad. I got a sweet candy dish full of candy for my gift.
Next, I dropped Kate at home and then drove out to Rocky Knoll. Dick is extremely tired and somewhat confused. I know that lot of it is due to the infection in his body but just wish he would start eating and that thick water is going to be a real problem if he has to continue with it. He keeps telling me to bring ice and has "suggested" seriously that it is my fault that he is getting the thick water. I stayed until he had dinner, such as it was, and then came home. He is still only eating a few bites of things. He did drink all of his tomato juice tonight.
So that was the day. I am calling Dr. Sharon in the morning and plan on being at Rocky Knoll at about 9AM. Hopefully in time for therapy.
So keep on praying. As I said, I am about out of strength myself and I know that it is all the prayers that are keeping me going and will bring the answers we need to make Dick well.
Time for bed now. Just think, in one more week it will be Christmas Eve.
Dia Dhuit
Mary
I had a PT appointment at 8:15AM. That went well, I guess. I am not seeing much change in the pain yet. I told Dara, I will have the strongest sore arm in town soon.
Then I stopped at Walgreens for a prescription and some toothpaste on my way to Bible Study. It was a very nice study, our last until next year. That always seems funny to say. We started with our prayer and petitions first. I was able to thank them all for all the prayers that have been showering heaven about Dick and me. We then discussed the terrible tragedy in Connecticut. Something like that always hits right in the heart. It is hard to understand and we know there are never answers. I am so impressed with the heroes of that day and feel that heaven really got a dose of beauty and innocence, all in one morning. All those beautiful children. Poor Moms and Dads.
Then I hurried home and gathered my food for the Cream City Writers Christmas lunch. Beverly invited us to her home, we did pot luck. It was SO good and so good to be with my friends. It has been at least three months since I could go to the meetings. Too much time away from Dick. I had arranged for care during all of my club's parties. Now that he is at Rocky Knoll, I was able to go to this one anyway. Last week, when he was in the hospital, I skipped two of them. I read my Christmas poem and the poem about the Trees that I wrote when they destroyed them in back of the condo to make way for the railroad. I got a sweet candy dish full of candy for my gift.
Next, I dropped Kate at home and then drove out to Rocky Knoll. Dick is extremely tired and somewhat confused. I know that lot of it is due to the infection in his body but just wish he would start eating and that thick water is going to be a real problem if he has to continue with it. He keeps telling me to bring ice and has "suggested" seriously that it is my fault that he is getting the thick water. I stayed until he had dinner, such as it was, and then came home. He is still only eating a few bites of things. He did drink all of his tomato juice tonight.
So that was the day. I am calling Dr. Sharon in the morning and plan on being at Rocky Knoll at about 9AM. Hopefully in time for therapy.
So keep on praying. As I said, I am about out of strength myself and I know that it is all the prayers that are keeping me going and will bring the answers we need to make Dick well.
Time for bed now. Just think, in one more week it will be Christmas Eve.
Dia Dhuit
Mary
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Sorry I didn't post last night. I was just so exhausted and trying to get things done around the house.
Spent the morning at Rocky Knoll with Dick. He still has no appetite to speak of and is so very tired. And he wants ice water. I have convinced the nurses to top the thick water with a couple of cubes of ice which keeps it cold and provided the feel of ice on his lips. Bobbie brought him soda today and they thickened that. She said he liked the Sierra Mist.
He just tells me he wants to go home. I told him that we have to see what the doctors say first. I had hoped he could be home for Christmas, but I am not seeing any improvement in his strength and I can't take care of him as weak as he is.
My friend, Joan Kramer,came over to the house today and gave me a reflexology treatment. I am feeling much more relaxed and hope that this will help me get a really great sleep and that I will wake up rested.
A busy day tomorrow.
Dia Dhuit
Mary
Spent the morning at Rocky Knoll with Dick. He still has no appetite to speak of and is so very tired. And he wants ice water. I have convinced the nurses to top the thick water with a couple of cubes of ice which keeps it cold and provided the feel of ice on his lips. Bobbie brought him soda today and they thickened that. She said he liked the Sierra Mist.
He just tells me he wants to go home. I told him that we have to see what the doctors say first. I had hoped he could be home for Christmas, but I am not seeing any improvement in his strength and I can't take care of him as weak as he is.
My friend, Joan Kramer,came over to the house today and gave me a reflexology treatment. I am feeling much more relaxed and hope that this will help me get a really great sleep and that I will wake up rested.
A busy day tomorrow.
Dia Dhuit
Mary
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