Snow

 Yes    We had snow today, and are expecting accumulating snow in the next couple of days.

Saw Dr. Trachtke today (still having trouble breathing.)     THe fluids are accumulating in my right lung again.    I will get a stent put in tomorrow.    Unfortunately some cancer DID show up in the fluids they took out last week.     We are proceeding with what can be done.    I am not in pain so that is a blessing.    Please pray for me.

Thank you for everything - I care for you all.    Please take care of you and yours.

Dia DHuit

Mary

Past, Present. Future

Nightly my mind meanders.

Does it matter where?

We are cold.

Right now it is 21 degrees.    I know all my northern friends are laughing as I DO check your temps in the mornings and know you are much colder.      BUT I am an Okie now and expect much warmer times.   Since I lost all that weight, I get cold easier too.

It was a nice day though.      I am having trouble breathing still, but moved my appointment up to THIS Thursday instead of next week.     If I am worse tomorrow, I will call and see if Dr. Traqchke can squeeze me in.    I should be able to handle one more day after a Long night in my  adjustable bed.   Sure glad I replaced the old one with that - It is really making a difference.

 My friend, Lupe, dropped by with a Lenten daily prayer book for me.    Can't believe that Wednesday is Ash Wednesday already.      I will have to miss that for probably the first time since I was 6 years old and went with Mother or Dad.

God understands.    We will count my gasping as ashes this year.

Take care of all of you.

I love you SO much and miss you.

Dia Dhuit

Mary

 

 

Can't tell where 

The clouds leave off

And the earth begins

Monday

 I am still having trouble breathing.    Will call the doctor tomorrow for advice.  I AM getting air in deeper but am still out of breath every time I stand up or walk anywhere.   Just going to get some advice.    I am so TIRED.

Bart came over and spent most of the morning and early afternoon.   He did my wash, bless his soul and changed the sheets on the bed for me.    He and Barb are SO good to me and I am no fun now:) :)   I hope you see my humor.

Friends are so good about checking on me.     My neighbor Mark, across the street is checking the mail for me every day.   He and Sondra say I am part of their family.     I am going to bake for them when I am better.

Thanks for all the prayers and good thoughts.    Keep them up Please.

Dia Dhuit

Mary

ON FLYING

Darkness surrounds us

We fly over the ocean

Held up by angels.

Hi

I am heading to bed after a blessedly wonderful day.    I had calls and visits and am totally wonderfully exhausted.    Will do better posting tomorrow.

Dia Dhuit

I love you all

Mary

OOPS I meant it is the 5th already

 Silly me

Can't believe it is Feb. 4 Already

 I got my second coronavirus vaccine this morning and saw Dr. Aiku, my primary physician.   I DO feel better after getting rid of the amount of fluid removed from my right lung, but am still breathless if I do anything.    I do seem to be recovering better and understand that my body and the furosomide should get rid of the rest of the fluids.    I see Dr. Trachtke in two weeks.   Unless things get worse again, of course.   Which tells me that this is not an overnight healing.

THanks for all the prayers.    I pray for each of you every day.  Stay well and safe and love each other.

Dia Dhuit

Mary

Good thing

I will be seeing the lung doctor tomorrow morning.    Please pray that he can fix me.   I think I just have to be drained.    Wow, to take a breath without gasping for air.   AND to walk across a room.

Nora and Eileen both called me today.     How good my family is.   They must KNOW that I need a voice often:)

So tired.    Now I actually believe that there is perhaps a resolution .    This is the doctor that did my lung surgery.\

Dia Dhuit

Mary 

Morning Doves crooning

In the early dank morning

Sadness in their song.

One thing checked

Dr. Ivan, the heart specialist, says that though there is fluid in my heart, my heart is strong and that the fluid in my lungs which the hospital did not seem to concerned with is the problem.     He has referred me to Dr. Tratchke, the lung specialist who did my cancer surgery.      He should be able to drain the lung.    Please pray that this is so and that he can see me soon.     I am so very very tired.

Dia dhuit

Stay Well

I love you all

Mary

When green grass smiling

Under sky of  blue so pure

I ALWAYS brings peace to our souls.

A beautiful sunny day.

 Too bad that I could not go out and enjoy it.

Vita sure enjoyed her back yard. I do miss walking.

Tomorrow I will see Dr. Ivan.    I am trying not to get my hopes up for an instant cure.     It is hard though because I am so tired and so tired of gasping for air.

You all pray for INSTANT for me:)

Barb brought me some wonderful taco soup for my supper.    Am I blessed or what!!!

 

 

Dia Dhuit

Mary

St. Brigid's Eve

Tomorrow is St.Brigid's Day.    You all know, I think, that she, St. Patrick and St. Colm Cille are all patron saints of Ireland.      It is tradition to put a new cloth outside overnight as they say that Brigid roams the earth this night.     Her spirit passes through the clothes that are out and they can be helpful in healing throughout the year.

I love these old traditions.   

I was alone today, but heard from a few people and got caught up with my Bill Smith.

Tomorrow is quiet too, then on Tuesday, I see the hear specialist.    You are probably ALL sick of hearing about that but I am so anxious to see if there is anything to be done for my breathing.   

As I always say, I pray for all of you and want you to take special care in this strange world of ours.

Dia Dhuit

Mary 

Love when it begins 

Is pure and full of promise

Hope and trust can prevail.

The day is done

 Didn't do anything but am still tired.    Somebody ALWAYS calls or stops by for a minute so I feel very cared for.     I pray for all of you every day.    That I have tune for and cab talk to HIM anytime.    

Take care of YOU and YOURS>

Dia Dhuit

Mary

I believe in love

Where peace and passion can meet

In perfect comfort,

Bart stopped by today

 Bless his heart, he did a load of wash for me.

Bret called tonight.    I was sure glad to hear his voice.    

I am still totally tired when walking and talking but think perhaps I feel a Little bit better.   Will continue resting and not overdoing.    

Bless ALL of you for your prayers and calls and thoughts.     Hoping for really good news with the heart  doctor on Tuesday.

We are supposed to have a warm weekend, perhaps some rain, but warm.

Dia Dhuit

Mary

CLASS OF 1958

We were invincible

We walked tall and\

 strode into the now

With great promise

We dreamed of a future

Higher than the hills

 

We ARE invincible

We walked tall and

Strode in to the future

With giant steps

We left a path

Wider than the sea/

 

It was sunny tody

 After a grand thunderstorm last night.   Busy Day.    Michael came and unplugged my plumbing this morning and I saw my Cancer Doctor, Dr. Currie today.    Had blood test and all and he says I am doing fine.      Have to see him in six months and we will talk about getting the port out.     Hopefully my shortness of breath and weakness will be all gone by then.     He doesn't have answers for that, of course.     I am SO hoping that Dr. Ivan, the heart guy can help.

Going to have Chili for dinner and get in bed by 8PM again.

Dia Dhuit

Mary

So many days and weeks alone

Do weigh on people's spirits

They yearn for touch and dulcet tones

Of others, like them NEEDING it.

Home again

Home again.     It did rain a bit today.    Vita does not like rain.     I will let her out one more time before I go to bed.

Had a hamburger and blueberries and protein drink for supper.    I have been "ordered" to consume two of the protein drinks every day as I am losing weight again.

My friend Lupe brought me communion tonight after the 4:30PM  Mass.     I am so blessed to have people who care for me and bring me such a treat.    I miss the sacrament when I can't have it.

Dia Dhuit

Mary

 

A MEMORY OF SNOW
Sunshine

Glinting on snow

Is very deceiving.

Giving us a promise of warmth.

A LIE

Friday already

I am trying to keep track of the days.    Actually doing this blog helps, but sometimes I just forget.    There isn't much to do.

Good thing there isn't much to do.    I am not even getting that done:)

Bart came over to visit for a while, AND my friend, Marti brought flowers.   I was so touched.   Now I have something beautiful and fresh in the living room.     We had a lovely visit.     She is in my bible study AND my writiers club.    Karlos, her husband, is also in the writers club.     So good to have friends.

I can't seem to get enough rest.     Monday, I go to the CancerCenter for my cancer checkup.    I will also have blood tests that my other doctors will have available.     I see the heart specialist a week from Monday.  Why AM I not getting stronger.

Dia Dhuit

Mary

 

 

Let us strive for healing,

Healing of body,

Healing of soul.

Let us see value

In every soul that walks the earth.

Felt better this morning

 but that has deteriorated during the day.   I thought I was being careful, but apparently I cannot do much at all.

Bart came over today and did some shopping and visited with me, so I did not have to be alone all day.     As I say, Vita does her best but she is after all only a little doggie.

I hope each long night's sleep will provide some healing and will be home for the rest of the week.  Will try to remember not to do much of anything.    (It is amazing how things get cluttered, however.)    I will do my best.

At least my house was cleaned yesterday.    I am truly blessed.

Bless all of you

I love you.

Mary

Thoughts of Ireland

Cloudy Dublin day

Cannot dim the city's joy

We drank it all in

Water from the holy wells

Bridged the spirit World

Drums reset my heart

The healing is complete

We walk between the raindrops.

Just about the same

 I keep thinking that this will pass AND perhaps it will, but I am getting a bit discouraged.   I sleep alright  so my body is trying.      I am trying to eat enough, don't know if I am doing well on that.

Today, my cleaning lady, Kerry, came and cleaned my house.    Good thing.    I don't know if I told you that I had a backup on the plumbing again.    Michael from Shields came and fixed it and took all the crud out of the tub and shower, but they needed a deep cleaning.

I am able to take care of most things and call Bart and Barb for what I cannot do.

Pray for me.    I am so tired and I DON"T like being weak.

As you all know, patience is not my virtue:)

Love you all

Dia Dhuit

Mary

Another day home

Vita is finally starting to accept the fact that we are not taking walks.     She is spending much more time in the wonderful backyard she has.

I am still out of breath anytime I walk of do too much talking.    Trying to stay put and quiet.   Or at least talk slowly.

Barb stopped by with provisions for me and we had a short visit.     So glad to see someone real.     My friend, Judy, stopped by after church with some books for me to read.    I got several calls today.    Dick and Brenda, my friend Barb among them.   So nice to be thought of.    Talked to Bill Smith today too, I realized he probably did not know and I was right.     He was so glad I let him know.

Tomorrow, a quiet Sunday.   I won't be going anywhere until this breathlessness stops OR I have a doctor appointment.   I hope the breathlessness goes away first!!!!

Dia Dhuit

Mary

If we lose the fact

That every person has value

We are surely doomed.

Home another day

I DID have to go to see my doctor, Dr. Aiku, this afternoon.    She  wants to see me after I see the heart specialist unless the breathing problem does not subside.     I will be seeing a Dr. Ivan, the heart specialist on Feb 5.

Poor Vita is very upset as she does not get walks any more.      I give her plenty of back yard opportunities so I know she does something.    At least she is not messing in the house.  Hopefully we will be able to walk again, but I will no longer take her out three or four times a day.    I have learned my lesson.

Bless you all.

Dia Dhuit

Mary

 

Poem from my walking days

 

The wind took my hat

As we walked around the block

I chased it and caught it

No wind gets the best of me:)

How is everybody

 I suppose you have all given up on me by now.     Some of you know that I am having a couple of health issues, but the doctor's assure me that they are all minor or "related to old age."     Actually I do not find the last encouraging,but it is what it is.

Anyway, I am home and have my Vita with me and will be alone tonight.    I, if I remember that there are no deadlines, will do just fine.  Tomorrow, I see my family doctor again.     U definitely do feel better each day.

Not COVID, thank God.

Take care of all of you in this goofy world.

DIa Dhuit

Mary

Loving

Is all we need

To be able to make

Us strong and safe again!

LOVE MORE!!!