I am so glad that he is there and no longer in pain or feeling bad, but I miss him so much. Why do anniversaries bring up these feelings? It is just another day. I am not handling it well, I fear. But I keep remembering my Bret and our mantra "Don't worry, Mom. Everything will be OK. It will be all right, Don't worry. "
It isn't working right this minute but I know it will be OK eventually.
Jeff and Kathy stopped by on their way to Mom's house. Jeff tried to fix my storm window but he did not have the proper tool either. I went to the new Ace Hardware in Sheboygan Falls and they got it repaired and they didn't even charge me. When I got home I called my neighbor's, the Hurries. and Peggy sent Bob over to put it in for me. So I am insulated from the cold.
People are really good to me. It is really hard for me to ask for help. But I am learning. Several years ago, my doctor, Dr. Murthy, told me to ask for help if I needed it. I am trying very hard but I am a stubborn person and like my Mother keep thinking "Mind over Matter." Most of the time it works.
Tomorrow I am home all day and will try to get my head together.
I think I sent all of you my new Christmas Poem called Nollaig Shona. If I didn't let me know and I will send it to you special.
Here is an old poem that is not exactly Christmas but kind of fit.
BOY
CHILD
by
Mary Kunert
Did
He spin in circles
His
arms outstretched
His
face towards the sky
A
smile on his lips
Calling
Mama,
Mama
Look
at Me?
Did
He bring home a puppy
A
kitten or a toad
And
say in a breathless voice
A
smile on His lips
Begging
Mama,
Mama
Can
I keep him?
Did
she tuck Him in
Kiss
His cheek
Inhale
the sweet moist smell
Of
the Boy Child's hair
Whispering
Jesus,
Jesus
I
love you?
Pray for me please and remember Jacquie, my sister in law too.
Dia Dhuit
Mary
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